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I’m back!

Did you miss me? Hopefully, you did because I learned so much since the last time that I posted on this site. I have done so much since April 2018 and I have to share this with my audience. If you have liked my previous posts or followed my account before, welcome back. If you are new to this site, I suggest that you read this post to know a little bit about myself. Let’s get started.

When I first started this site, it was for a project in my Participatory Media class. Now, I decided that it would be a good time to revive the site as a personal freelance writing blog. I kept majority of my original posts because I liked what I wrote. They showcased my writing ability while simultaneously showing off my personality. Unfortunately, I had to discard some of my posts because they were either too trashy or too serious for my blog. You live and you learn right. I will be posting more of my own writing more frequently and trying to build my personal brand in the process.

When I first started this site, I was a college senior trying to achieve my Bachelor of the Arts degree in Communication Studies. Now I am a college graduate with a part-time job as an Administrative Assistant for a hedge fund. This job was not easy to find. I applied to over 100 jobs via Indeed, LinkedIn, Career Shift and more. I went on over 25 job interviews to only be told “no” for whatever reason. I did not give up and eventually I got a job that would start a foundation for my career. Nobody told me it would take seven months to get my first adult job but in those seven months, I learned a lot about myself as well as the world around me.

When I first started this site, I was a student. Now I am an adult. Most people do not think this difference is drastic but when you have gone to school for 20 years, it is the only routine you have been accustomed too. When you are done with the school system and left to your own devices, it feels odd. You do not know what to do at first then slowly figure it out as time goes by. I still do not have it all figured out. I am working on it.

Overall, I am excited for 2019. I am looking forward to working at my job. I am excited to advance my career. I am excited to embark on a new journey into freelance writing and hopefully get some career opportunities out of that. I am excited to start this new chapter in my life. Hopefully, it will be a good one.

Faith

Faith. What does that word mean to you? To me, it means that you have to believe in yourself, opportunities, and that things will work out at the end. Those three aspects of faith have shaped me into the human that I am today. Faith is a big part of my life. I started believing in faith when I was little and my beliefs have only gotten stronger throughout the years. I used faith to get through some of the toughest situations life threw at me. Now, I am stronger than ever because I believed that everything would work out in the end and it eventually did. Faith is a hard concept to grasp because it is abstract and complex. Sometimes situations seem like they will never get better but faith always has a way to work its magic.

When I was three years old, I was diagnosed with Autism. The doctors told my family that I would never be able to speak, go through a regular school system, or be an active member of society. My family was crushed. Our worst nightmare came true but instead of perseverating over it, we worked hard to prove those doctors wrong. The thing that helped us accomplish this goal was faith. We had to have faith that things will work out at the end. What I mean by that is I had to face each challenge pertaining to my disability with confidence, perseverance, and most of all faith. Faith is the reason why we preserved through the regular public school system despite the higher-ups trying to push me out the door. Faith is the reason why despite struggling socially, I still push myself to make friends and have a normal social life. Faith is the reason why I am graduated college with a Bachelors Degree in Communication and Media Studies. Faith finds a way for things to work out.

When I was younger, I would have patterns. If you do not know what those are, it was basically my daily routine that was based off the clock. I would have to abide by these rules that I set up or else I would have a meltdown. These patterns caused a lot of stress on myself. My parents even brought black electrical tape to tape over all the electrical clocks in the house. Eventually my parents had to wean me off my patterns by telling me that everything was going to be okay if I put on my pajamas at 8:30 pm instead of 8 pm or if I ate dinner at 7 pm instead of 6 pm. At first, I wanted to defy them by continuing my patterns. These patterns brought me comfort and predictability in a world that was unpredictable. Slowly I realized that these patterns were becoming to destructive to my life. I had to use faith to believe that I could break these patterns. I had to learn how to trust the process which is not an easy thing to do espiecally for an Autistic person. By having faith in myself, I allowed myself to be more open to the possibilities.

Faith is defined as the complete trust or confidence in someone or something.  I would love to have complete trust and faith into someone or something but life does not always give us that blessing. That is why I have to put my faith in opportunities. After I graduated college, I thought I was going to get a job right away. That did not happen. I had to wait seven months before my first job offer came through. During that time period, I did not know what to do. I never had no set plan before. So I had to put faith into abstract concepts such as positivity, hope, and happiness. This created a more positive outlook on my not-so-ideal situation. I had to think of all the positive things in my life, do things that made me happy, and hope for a good job opportunity in the future. By holding out and keeping the faith, I finally got a good job opportunity that will be the foundation for my career.

As shown above, faith has been and will continue to be a defining thing in my life. Since I was a little girl, I have used faith to get through all of the major obstacles that have tried to hold me back. From scheduled patterns to a prolonged job search, I managed to get through the struggle with faith by my side. If anybody is struggling out there, faith will help you prevail. Have faith in yourself, your environment, your support system, and the world around you. Faith is the key to all good in this world. Just remember, even though times are tough, you are tougher.

Love Poems-A Collection

#1- In the Air
Romance was in the air
Butterflies were in my stomach
The wind blowing in his hair
My feelings were atomic

Butterflies were in my stomach
As he took my hand
My feelings were atomic
Our toes in the sand

As he took my hand
My heart fluttered like a dove
Our toes in the sand
I was starting to fall in love

My heart fluttered like a dove
We started to kiss
I was starting to fall in love
It was a moment that I did not want to miss

We started to kiss
Romance was in the air
It was a moment that I did not want to miss
The wind blowing in his hair

#2-Forbidden
There was a boy
His name was Troy
I was awestruck
Then we started to fuck

He touch made me feel alive
A part of my mind was revived
He was electrifying
This thought was terrifying

This love had to be hidden
For it was forbidden
The family hatred was strong
So we had to play along

I thought this was true love
His presence made my heart flutter like a dove
I thought he was the one
Until he said we were done

My heart broke into two
I did not know what to do
He stood there silent
I was about to get violent

I punched him in the face
He put me in my place
I was shocked
My world was rocked

I pulled out a gun
It was pointed his head
Bang! Bang!
He was dead

#3-On this Starry Night
The warm, summer air blew on my skin
I took a swig from the bottle of gin
The sky was covered in lights
On this starry night

I danced with him on the grass
Then I fell on my ass
He lifted me up with all his might
On this starry night

He kissed me on the lips
That were covered in chips
He was twice my height
On this starry night

The music started to get too loud
So we ran off from the crowd
There was nobody in sight
On this starry night

He put himself inside me
I felt passion and glee
He said I was tight
On this starry night

Turns out everyone were stalkers
Majority were also gawkers
I ran and took flight
On this starry night

It was 3 a.m.
I did not want to fun to end
He had to say goodbye
On this starry night

#4-Broken
My first love broke me
I need repair
From the damage everyone could see
From the despair

I need repair
His words cut into me like a knife
From the despair
And the strife

His words cut into my like a knife
There is nothing there
And the strife
Is too hard to bare

There is nothing there
I’m ripping at the seams
Is too hard to bare
So I look at memes

I’m ripping at the seams
My first love broke me
So I look at memes
From the damage everyone can see

Asteroids, Meteors, and Fossils….Oh My

Disclaimer: This is story is fiction.

Boom! I jolted out of bed. I had just heard that loudest crash of my life. Did somebody get shot? Did a bomb go off? I thought I was just imagining until I saw fragments of hot, red lava outside my window. It couldn’t be, is it? I jumped out of bed, ran outside, and saw an event that I thought I would never see in my lifetime. An asteroid and a meteoroid collided near Earth. The remains are the collision are raining down on the planet surface causing havoc amongst the townspeople. It finally happened. The long awaited crash between an asteroid and a meteor. I wanted to say that I was surprised but I saw this coming from a mile away.

This was a news story for a while. Everybody just brushed it off except me. I knew that this crash was bound to happen. I put warning flyers around town, gave guest lectures at the local community college, and even created my own YouTube channel discussing my theories on this crash. Turns out, I was right. As everyone else was scrambling for cover, I simply went downstairs to my manmade shelter. This shelter was made from a rare form of metal that can protect citizens from any dangerous space objects such as the remains of an asteroid/meteor crash. I thought of helping my neighbors but I decided to say “fuck it” and go in myself.

When I woke up, the next day I heard no noise. No cars beeping, no neighbors talking, no birds chirping just silence. I walked outside and it was like somebody just gutted my entire neighborhood. It was nothing but a foreign wasteland. I started digging around that wasteland. All of the sudden, I discovered something. It was a fossil but not just any ordinary fossil. It was a fossil from a different planet. I quickly went to my manmade shelter to study this mysterious fossil. I discovered that this fossil was from the planet Mars. It was a fossil that looked like it could be from a foot of a horse or a dog. I could not tell what animal it was from. All I knew is that I was going to Mars.

My manmade shelter contained a jet pack that could send me to outer space at any time. After the collision, I concluded that it was a good idea to go to space. I set my engines, took off into space, and landed on mars. When I got there, I was greeted with a nice drift a red sand. I stepped outside my shuttle and saw yet another barbaric wasteland. I took my fossil and walked around the planet for a bit. All of the sudden, I found something peculiar. The giant footprint in front of me was the same footprint that was on the fossil that I found earlier. I quickly realized that the footprints formed a trail. I decided to follow that trial to see where it would take me. The results were shocking to say the least.

When I researched the end of this little trail, I thought what could this be. All of the sudden, I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and I shit you not a real live alien was standing behind me. I was floored. He motioned me to follow him so I did. He stopped suddenly, took my hand, and showed me an alien village. I could not believe my eyes. I always though aliens were a sham until now. They were nothing but welcoming, kind-hearted creatures. I was so bashful that I kept looking at the ground the entire time they were talking to me. That is when I discovered that the footprints on the ground were the alien’s footprints. The same one that matched my fossil earlier. The fossil was proof that life existed on other planets.

It was that moment that I decided to move to Mars for good. For the first time in a long time, I felt respected. When I lived on Earth, no one would take me seriously. Every thought my warnings on the collision were a joke until it actually happened. Now, I have friends who listen, care, and want to know about my knowledge of space. I am so glad that I found this fossil because this fossil found me a bunch of new friends that I will never let go!

The Golden Nugget

Disclaimer: This story is fiction.

It was a nice, spring day. I decided to utilize my time outside and plant fresh roses in my garden. As I was planting these roses, I felt an unusual bump. I decided that it was just a rock and continued to plant roses. All of the sudden, I see this bright, shining light come from under the soil. Again, I did not think anything of it until the light was unbearable. I decided to go check it out. I dug into the soil where the light was shining through and realized that it was a golden nugget. A big, fat, shining golden nugget. My heart leaped out of its chest. I have heard about the golden nugget in books, magazines, movies, television, and everywhere else. This golden nugget was supposed to bring me unimaginable level of wealth. I was skeptical about it so I picked up the golden nugget and went inside. I placed the golden nugget onto my coffee table and flipped on the news.

“The search for the golden nugget is still underway”

“Yes, the nugget is said to be in the tristate area”

“What are the golden nugget’s magical powers, Susan?”

“Well, the golden nugget is the richest item in the world worth 2 billion dollars. If somebody finds it, they are officially the richest person in the world.”

I sat there frozen. I glanced over at the golden nugget. It was still shining as ever. This can’t be real I thought. I looked over again and the same golden nugget that was being portrayed on the news was on my coffee table. I leaped out of my seat, took the golden nugget, and ran to my local convenience store. When I got there, I quickly ran up to the boy at the cash register.

“LOOK IT IS THE GOLDEN NUGGET,” I shouted

The boy looked once and passed out. I stood there for a minute till the manager came out. The manager stood there in shock. He took the golden nugget from me and held it up.

“I am in disbelief. It is the actual golden nugget. The one everybody talks about in the movies. I’ll cash this baby up right away!!”

Soon enough, everyone knew that I won the golden nugget. I was on the front pages of all the magazines, my face was on the news every night, and I was accounting more wealth then I could imagine. I moved out of my old house into a giant mansion. I brought five fancy sports cars, a backyard waterpark, a concert venue, a 5-star restaurant as my kitchen, all these designer clothes, and much more. I quit my job. I threw wild parties every day and night. I gained all these new friends. I lead a life of fame and fortune. I was on top of the world. But that soon came to a screeching halt.

To my and everyone else’s surprise the golden nugget only gave you wealth for a certain amount of time. Six months to be exact. As soon as the six months ended, the wealth that you earned would be taken away from you. I learned this the hard way when the two billion dollars I got from the golden nugget disappeared overnight. Everything I had slowly disappeared. I had to sell everything; the mansion, the waterpark, the concert venue, restaurant, the clothes, and everything else that I bought. I lost all my friends. My fame was dwindling to nothing. The guy who cured cancer stole my spotlight. I was just another piece of history that was not getting revived any day soon.

I had to start from the ground up. I moved back into my old house. I worked at the local flower shop for minimum wage. I restarted my garden and planted a whole new batch of roses. I looked through the soil beforehand just in case I saw a golden nugget. No such luck was found. I am glad the golden nugget came into my life. Why? Because I realized that life is about quality not quantity. You do not need to be super wealthy to have a fulfilling life. You just need a few good friends, a roof over your head, and some nice roses to smell in your garden.