I Wish

I wish I did not feel so lost

I wish I knew what the future held

I wish I did not have PSTD

I wish my feelings would be taken seriously

I wish somebody truly understood me

I wish people did not try to make decisions for me

I wish I had more control over my life.

I wish people did not treat me as a charity case

I wish people would treat me as an equal

I wish I did not have so much internalized anger

I wish I was not so misunderstood

I wish I could find someone who is similar to me

I wish people would understand that I was bullied in school

I wish people would understand that bullying is everywhere

I wish my feelings would be validated in this society

I wish the Autism was represented properly

I wish people with disabilities were mainstreamed

I wish people would respect me

I wish people would not infantilize me

I wish discrimination did not exist

I wish Ableism did not exist

I wish for equality

It’s not my disability, it is the stigma surrounding my disability

Writing helps me get through it

Stigma

I have Autism.
The stigma is terrifying.
Struggling with society’s Ableism.
Lord knows I am trying.

The stigma is terrifying.
I know my capability.
Lord knows I am trying.
To live with my disability.

I know my capability.
Being constantly excluded.
To live with my disability
While the world is still deluded.

Being constantly excluded.
I know I have to stay strong.
While the world is still deluded.
And my approach is wrong.

I know I have to stay strong.
I have Autism.
And my approach is wrong.
Struggling with society’s Ableism.